My Twitch-Con Experience

• Well. I did it.
• I met my idols.
• I made my bucket list complete.
• Here's what I planned.
• I get my estranged dad to take me, (which I know has money, making me a very evil person-) and try to connect. (didn't work.)
• Leave at 3pm, get there before 6. That didn't go to plan because traffic sucks dick. We got there at 6: 30 and had to beg for them to give us the tickets. Once they did, I had 3 hours to kill and most of the fun stuff was closed or done. It was sad. And my phone was dying. So, we got falafel across the street and ate before we went to go see where the panel would be and charge my phone at a nearby port. I got bored about 15 minutes later and left. I was going to check out the roast (which sucked ass) when I was on the escalator and I spotted him.
• Russ.
• Or a person who looked a shitton like him. But then I saw a key item.
• The horn.
• The stupid and awesome horn he bore.
• But thing is, could just be an awesome cosplayer.
• So I sat at a table a bit away and waited for a cue. Something to tell me that this was real.
• Then a group walks up to him and he shakes hands and signs things.
• Its real.
• Its him.
• At this point, I have an anxiety attack and start to shake and cry. I wanted to go towards him but he looked so busy. I didn't want to interrupt. So I waited. And waited. Sitting in the back, wearing a shirt I knew Russ would like. And then, his lady friend noticed me. And forced me to confront him--not a great idea. I stay quiet. All I can mutter is 'I drew these for you.' And they give me thanks and I retreat. I got my meeting. But then, I started crying. Why? Because my one meeting amounted to nothing. I just wasted a key opportunity. My father thought I was overwhelmed. No. I fucked up. I fucked up so hard. Then, I build up courage from my dad and ask to take a picture with Russ. And he notices I'm crying. Shit. I brush it off as excitement and he gives me the 'regular joe' shpeel. I get my picture and start to calm myself down. I talked to Russ. About me following them for so long, them being my invisible support for my depression and suicide attempt. How I followed what they followed to see if I liked it or not and usually, I did. I bet I seemed like a crazed fan but I'm really not. Or I could be. I dunno. Fuck, man. I was so overwhelmed but I never wanted to stop talking. I loved 'my boys', as my mother would call them. They're my Saturday nights. When the conversation ended and I got my wristband, I was overjoyed. I spoke to him. One on one. My dreams were over. They were lived. Now, it was just the panel left. I sat in the 3rd row, aisle seat. If you watch footage of Twitch-Con stream, my dad is seen recording in every shot. I asked them my question 'What is your favorite video game series?' and they answered. I watched Draxr's video a few days later and saw all the comments about my hair. It made me smile. Anyways, after the panel, jund threw t-shirts out and I got elbowed in the head and hurt my eye. But Snake handed me another wristband so now I have two colors. But I was super upset and mad that I got hit and I didn't get a shirt. I just wanted to scream. But they told us to GTFO and we did. But Russ and the others stayed after and took pictures and stuff. I got to formally meet Scott and Snake, got autographs, and spoke about PW with Russ, hoping that Scott DOES play Dahlia in the next game (pls). And I told them my name. Hearing Scott's approval meant a lot since most people give me so many stares for it. I ended my night with a hug and a promise made to Russ about 2 things: One, I will not die by my own hand and two, My senior quote is going to be "Honk :3" My night was fulfilled. My life was 100% better for it. LNC has completely changed me over the past years and I even pick up their laughs and jokes nowadays. I am so thankful to all of them. And not to mention, I did draw them fanart that I will post on another post. Thank you guys so much. Especially you, Russ. <3